The Undertaker's Wife
Longlisted for the 2013 RLP Award, Featured in the anthology: An Unsettled Winter
I look at her, as she lay on our antique wooden cot, fast asleep.
The soft cotton blanket lay crumpled beside her, a reminder
that she’d never really cared for it - preferring instead
to sleep with the breeze caressing her lithe body.
I look at her with ardor as I’ve done several times before,
but it’s different this time. . .
Her almond eyes, her ears hiding behind graying curls,
her thin lips and not-so-thin eyebrows, her broad forehead,
her pointed chin and nose, her neck and sinewy shoulders. . .
A grim nor’wester snaps me back to the job at hand. Slowly, I slide
beside her, undoing her clothes as I’ve done several times before,
but it’s different this time. . .
I pick up a sodden sponge and run it over her pale,
taut frame, taking care not to chafe, lest she’d complain.
I pick up her citrus-laced lotion and daub it softly,
releasing the most pleasant yet poignant fragrance.
I stagger to the cabinet and pick up her favorite dress:
a lilac knee-length outfit with dull-gold sequins around the waist;
My eyes well up as I slip it down her slender form.
I avoid the jewelry – she’d never fancied them – ‘cept for the
wedding band and the glass-bead earrings from our last vacation.
I place her favorite black shoes on her feet. My lips shiver
as they kiss hers, as they’ve done several times before,
but it’s different this time. . .
As I turn around, the aides take over, placing her gently
in a satin-lined casket. As we move along in the hearse,
I play back her favorite songs in my mind; I imagine her
dancing with abandon, just the way she did when we first met.
The grave is dug, the vault sunk in, the prayers said. I place
a bunch of her much loved lavenders by her and say a silent goodbye.
Promising to return every day, I turn around and walk away
never to direct a funeral again.
Poem copyright © Priya Narayanan 2013, All rights reserved
* Click on the Anthology cover to download the entire anthology in pdf. You can find my poem on page 36.